“I killed a Palestinian, he said proudly 

To get to the airport to fly back to the US, I took the 7:00 AM Israeli settler bus this morning from Hebron’s Shuhada Street – ghost town of a street that that has been closed to Palestinians, with its shops and doors welded shut, since 1994 when an Israeli settler massacred 29 Palestinian worshipers in the Ibrahimi mosque. Some soldiers came over to talk. They asked if I was with the Jews or the Arabs? I said that I am a Jew but but for all people, a member of the US organization Jewish Voice for Peace. They responded that they were familiar with Jewish Voice for Peace, and on the express how pleased they were that I am a Jew.  

One of the soldiers pronounced proudly, “I killed a Palestinian” referring to one of the teenage boys who had been shot dead two nights before in the Hebron neighborhood of Tel Rumeida where I was staying. he pointed to the stripes on the shoulder of his uniform to show his rank. I asked if death had been necessary in that stabbing attempt, that the knife was merely a mild kitchen knife. With all their guns and gear and military supplies, did they have to kill? Couldn’t they instead have subdued, wounded, arrested? “No,” they replied, “if he didnt kill him he would come back and kill us.” I asked how the boy could come back to continue his knife attack if he were wounded in the ground? “Later, he would,” The soldier replied. I told him that taking a life is what causes more [revenge] attacks. the soldiers made clear that they will always use their guns to kill when attacked. The conversation continued and soldier stated that this was the second life he had taken. He had also killed in Lebanon. Soon one of the soldiers soldiers lost interest in this topic and looked for a picture to show me on instagram if an American who had visited and brought them chocolate.  

Tonight is the first night of Hanukkah. I will be home in Ithaca to light candles and eat latkes with my children. In my head Woody Guthrie Happy Joyous Hanukkah has been playing. “Eight are the nights of Hanukkah, happpy joyous Hanukkah.” I’m trying to reconcile the joy I find in the Jewish holidays with the horrors I have witnessed this month in Hebron. On Saturday I will join my Rabbi for Havdala at my synagogue to have an conversation work our congregation about my recent experiences in Palestine and Israel. I don’t know yet what I will say about my conceptions of God and Judiasm and prophetic Judiasm. I ask you, God, for strength in this time when Jews take pride in our abilities to kill. 

Update from Tali Ruskin, of Jewish Voice for Peace – Boston


This past week I have had the pleasure of experiencing Palestine with my dear friend, Tali Ruskin, of Jewish Voice for Peace – Boston. Below is her update of our recent experiences.

“The next day, i went to Hebron to meet Ariel, a JVP activist and CODEPINK staff person, who has been staying with Youth Against Settlements (YAS) in Hebron [click here to help support YAS]. there was a new international volunteer who had just arrived, so i went with Ariel to show her around the old city, since a lot of what internationals do is act as a protective presence from the soldiers and settlers when the kids are walking to and from school, when houses are being raided, etc. our first order of business was to walk down to the market (about 1/2 mi from the YAS center) to get shoes for the new volunteer. however, it ended up taking us 3 hours to get down there, as we were forced to play what we’ve been calling “checkpoint roulette.” the most direct route was restricted to us because the soldiers had decided that morning when Ariel walked that way that Jews aren’t allowed to go that way. eventually we made it to the market, as things were closing, got shoes, and then started the trek back to the center. this time we weren’t allowed through a different entrance because the soldiers identified us as anarchists to their commander on the walkie talkie, to which he responded, “ta’if otam!” which loosely translates to “shoo them away!” we took an overpriced taxi back to the center, where we worked with the other international and palestinian activists on the new YAS website.
the next morning, ariel and i headed to Tel Aviv to meet with the Coalition of Women for Peace. Ariel had never taken a settler bus, so we decided to give her that experience. we walked down to the bus stop on Shuhada street, which used to be a bustling palestinian market, but has been closed to palestinians for almost 20 years, so now it’s ghost-town-y, with all the shops closed up (see pics). ariel and i sat at the bus stop for about a half hour watching the only activity on the street – young settler guys out for a run on the empty streets and soldiers going in and out of their base located there. eventually we boarded the bulletproof bus with tens of extremely unfriendly passengers. the ride to jerusalem took forever, as the bus went into every nook and cranny of the settlement before getting to the main highway road. from Jerusalem, we took a bus to Tel Aviv, filled with obnoxious Israeli teenage boys bro’ing out with each other. arriving at CWP was a huge relief! we met with 3 of the staff members, who were all amazing badass feminists. they talked to us about the organization, explaining that CWP overall aim is to bring a feminist analysis to anti-occupation work, and anti-occupation analysis to feminist work. not surprisingly, much of the resistance in palestine is doused in masculinity/machismo, so it was very refreshing to hear from them about their work.
International Women's Day, Qalandiya, West Bank, 8.3.2012

Several hundred women marched in a demonstration for Women’s Rights, marking International Women’s Day on March 8, 2012, in the West Bank town of Qalandiya.

we got an early start the next morning to head to the village of Nabi Saleh. though it’s about 20-30 miles from Tel Aviv, it took us about 3 hours to get there, due to the combination of public transportation and occupation. the entrance to the village was closed off and guarded by soldiers, so the taxi van took us on the off-road route. shortly after we arrived, everyone began to gather at the gas station for the weekly demonstration. there were about 30 locals, and 10 international/israeli activists. i immediately felt a different energy than i’ve felt at the demonstrations in Bil’in. it was much calmer, kinder, and less aggressive. the demonstration in Nabi Naleh is led by the women and children (remember this?). we marched down the road, following the women and children who were holding palestinian flags and leading chants. as we approached the entrance to the village, the soldiers started shooting tear gas, as per usual. the young boys flung rocks in sling shots toward the soldiers. this “game” went on for about another half hour. eventually we all walked back to the gas station, said goodbye to the internationals, and went back to Bassem and Nariman’s house. members of french media came to interview the oldest daughter, Ahed, about her involvement in the resistance. the reporters had wanted to see some photo album, but ahed couldn’t find it since their house had recently been raided by soldiers, who most likely took the album. this is something they often do to help them connect who knows who, etc.
Ariel and i then went to interview the mothers of 3 of the 17 members of the Tamimi family who are currently in israeli prison, charged with throwing stones at soldiers. many of them are on the Nabi Saleh soccer team. We are working on getting a campaign going to get them released. the interviews were as expected. extremely heart wrenching and painful to listen to. for all of the ones we interviewed, it was not their first time being arrested. we stayed overnight at Bassem and Nariman’s house. right before bed, Ariel looked at her Facebook, and learned that the YAS center in Hebron was under siege by settlers and soldiers, the coordinator (Issa) and one of the activists (Ahmed) had been arrested. so instead of staying in Nabi Saleh on saturday for the big soccer tournament they organized for all the neighboring villages, we hit the road for Hebron first thing in the morning.
when we finally arrived at the YAS center, we saw a group of about 50 settlers eating lunch at tables set up outside of the YAS center, surrounded by soldiers to “protect” them from the palestinians and internationals. they had been there since the night before, when the soldiers had come and arrested Issa and Ahmed. we sat at the center with the other palestinian, international, and israeli activists, watching the settler families enjoy their lunch with the utmost air of entitlement and smugness. we watched as the settler kids took over the soccer field where the palestinian kids had been playing. when the settlers started singing (er, whining) shabbat melodies, ariel and i decided to sing our own. we stood at the gate of the center, looking out onto the settlers, and sang Shabbat Shalom Hey, Hinei Ma Tov, Lo Yisa Goy, Shalom Rov, and a couple others. one of the palestinian activists, Sohaib, joined in for Shabbat Shalom Hey! 🙂 the singing roused confusion and curiosity in the settler kids who slowly started congregating near the gate, staring at us, extremely baffled. i saw some of their lips involuntarily moving to the words that are so familiar to them.
Sohaib and Ariel walked me down to where i got a ride to jerusalem. on the way, as we passed by a settler family, and i heard the 5or6-year-old son who was holding sticks say “abba, lizrok al ha’aravim? dad, should i throw these on the arabs?” i told him “lo lizrok! don’t throw!”
-From Tali Ruskin, Jewish Voice for Peace Boston

**Since October, Youth Against Settlements (YAS) has been facing massive violent attacks and targeting by the Israeli military and fanatical Israeli settlers. These have included, arrests, raids, detainments, intimidations, harassments, restrictions on freedom on movement, theft and destruction of cameras and media equipment, stones being thrown at them, and more. Your support is greatly needed. Please help by donating here – Ariel Gold


Shabbat morning in Hebron

I am sitting outside the Youth Against Settlements center watching Jewish children head down the hill for Shabbat morning services. I have been in Palestine/Israel for aroundIMG_5480 3 ½ weeks now and am now in Hebron. Hebron is the most severely occupied city in the West Bank. There are soldiers and checkpoints everywhere throughout the old city, intimidating and restricting Palestinian freedom of movement. I have been here for less than a week and so far I have witnessed numerous night raids on entire Palestinian neighborhood for the purpose of “mapping” – acquainting soldiers with the neighborhood layout of families and making a show of power, numerous arrests of young children where access to their parents and information about where they were being taken was denied, tear gassing of a girls school so severe that the young children had to receive oxygen, and more. Yesterday around 50 Palestinian youth were injured with live bullets at a weekly demonstration. The week before I arrived the center for the nonviolent organization, Youth Against Settlements, was raided by the army; Palestinians and international activists were held hostage for over 24 hours and around $15,000 of the equipment they use to for education and to document human rights abuses was destroyed. The soldiers are bad here, but the settlers are worse. There is a Jewish woman who is notorious for trying to run over internationals and Palestinians with her car and a Jewish man who pretends to be a paramedic. He drives an ambulance but has no medical training or skills and arrives at scenes of injury to Palestinians for the purpose of impeding real medical assistance and causing further harm.

While here, I have come to associate tzizit, kippah, and the star of David as synonymous with rifles, machine guns; harassment and/or impending injury. I have somewhat adjusted to this association, but this Shabbat morning it is more difficult. I find a part of myself wanting to forget that the soldiers and Jewish settlers call me a whore and traitor. I find myself wanting to follow the tallit wearing youth down the hill, wanting to hear the morning prayers. Quietly, under my breath I say the Sh’ma and feel tears well up in my eyes. I wonder what has become, and what will become, of Judaism?

Click here to donate to help replace Youth Against Settlements equipment destroyed by the Israeli military



The Israeli soldier who arrested me wore faux leather army boots


By Ariel Gold

We were at the weekly nonviolent demonstration in the West Bank village of Bil’in trying to get away from the army jeep when two female soldiers jumped from it and grabbed us. They held us by the jeeps twisting our arms behind our backs as we watched another international and a Palestinian get arrested as well. The other international, who was from Italy, was being badly beaten and pepper sprayed in his eyes. Me and the other woman were each being held by the women soldiers. The soldiers were in full head to toe protective gear and holding each of us in front of front of them in line of rocks being thrown by young Palestinian teenagers who could not see that their rocks were hurling forward toward unarmed unprotected civilians. I tried to bend my head forward to protect my face and neck from the oncoming rocks, but the soldier pulled my head up keeping me in line of the rocks. I asked her if she was intentionally trying to get me hit with a rock. She laughed and continued ensuring that my face was exposed and unprotected. I looked over at my friend next to me and saw that she too was having the same experience of the female soldier ensuring that her face was directly in the line of the rocks.

Later at the police station inside the illegal settlement of Mod’in Illit, I sat in handcuffs with one of the female soldiers who had arrested us at the demonstration. I was trying to talk with her to make a connection to her humanity. She was young, maybe 29 or 20 years old. I asked her about what music she likes, if she has any pets, what she likes to do when she isn’t on duty, and what her favorite foods are. “I’m vegetarian,” she said. “really,” I told her that I was vegan. “I have been vegetarian for two years,” she said. “I am trying to be vegan, but it is very hard in the military.” I told her that I was surprised; I had heard that the Israeli military offers vegan food, even faux leather army boots. She looked excited and proud and pointed to her boots and told me that they were indeed vegan. She told me she was inspired by Gary Yourofsky and saw I made a face. She asked why I didn’t like him. I explained that for me veganism is not simply about the liberation of animals but part of a principled stance against all forms of oppression. I told her that I consider it contradictory to be opposed to the oppression of animals while condemning or working to end sexism, racism, islamophophia, antisemitism, occupation, and more. I told her that for me vegan principles compel me to recognize and work for the equality of all beings and all people, including Palestinians. Though she didn’t take off her faux leather Israeli army boots and recognize immorality and brutal violence of the occupation, she did acknowledge that I had a point.

*Article describing my arrest last week in Bil’in, Palestine

A Reason for Celebration


The parade of cars beeped and people hung out of the windows waving Palestinian flags. A person from the village had just been released from jail. We were invited to come to the family’s house to participate in the celebration.

In the street there was music and the young man who had just been released was being carried around on people’s shoulders. As three women, we were ushered into the courtyard where the women were. We met the grandmother, mother, aunts, cousins, and more. Treats were being passed around and the women invited us to dance. “Inshallah, inshallah.” The young man being released had served a three year sentence in prison.

The Israel army drove through the village in armored jeeps that night making sure to keep a chill in the air, letting people know that the occupation continues.


Qalandia checkpoint

I went through the Qualandia checkpoint this morning to get from the West Bank to Jerusalem. Narrow cattle like bars and waiting for the flash moment when you can move through locked turnstile led to a metal detector for your bags and person – like airport screening but dirty and degrading. On the other side of the metal detector a man pressed his ID papers up against the glass for the soldiers’ approval. Another gave his finger to the electronic fingerprinting machine. A mother passed through with her young child and the buzzer went off. The soldiers behind the glass told her to take off her shoes and put them on the conveyor belt. With only stockings on her feet she walked across the dirty floor and through the metal detector one more time.


“Every night I dream of soldiers”

“Last night I dreamt that a soldier was arresting Mohammed. He was on the street in the middle of the village and he was crying as the soldier was trying to take him and I was saying, ‘why, why, take my son?’ but the soldier took him away. This morning when he went to school I told him to be careful because of my dream. They arrest them at school, on the way to school, on the way home fro school, at the demonstration, everywhere.” I am sitting in the home of my dear friend, Tasaheel, having breakfast. She is a mother of five children. Mohammed, her middle child, is 13, only a year younger than my son, Elijah. “A mother,” she says “is tired all the time every day from taking care of her children, and it only takes a moment for a soldier to kill them”.

The day before I arrived in the village of Bil’in, Mohammed’s 15-year-old brother, Abdul Khaliq, had been shot with a new kind of rubber bullet at the village’s weekly demonstration. It is a large bullet covered with blue foam. Abdul Khaliq says the purpose of it is hit a larger area of your body. A year and a half ago, Majd, the oldest child, was shot with live ammunition in his leg. It severed a nerve and he no longer can feel anything in his foot.

Tashaheel told me when I arrived that every night she dreams of soldiers and every morning she wakes up afraid that another of her children, will be shot like Majd and become disabled or killed. She told me that she wakes up every morning in fear for all the children in Palestine. Tears well up in her eyes. I want to tell something to soothe her, I want to tell her that it will be ok, but there is nothing I can say, except to sit with her in witness.

At night I sit outside with Majd and we talk about his hopes for his future. He tells me about his favorite moves and shows he things he has written, what music videos he likes. He wants to become a nerve surgeon because when he was shot there was no nerve surgeon available at the hospital in Ramallah where he was first taken. I ask if I can interview him about the shooting. He tells that if a nerve surgeon had been available (or if he could have easily been taken to the hospital in Jerusalem right away) he might not have permanently lost the feeling in his foot.

Acts of Terror


I am sitting in the Tamimi home in Nabi Selah. There is a group from France visiting and we are sitting around the living room with children running in and out of the room. All the sudden we hear what sounds like fireworks going off. We go outside to the porch to see if we can tell what is happening. It turns out the army is firing tear gas in the other side of the village. We go back inside and I ask my friend if tear gas being fired into part of the village is a regular occurrence? He replies that it is.

Along with the 14 young people that have been arrested this month, there is a list of about 10 other youth who are soon to be arrested. The villagers do not know when these arrests will take place, but they guess it will be within the next two-three weeks. The arrests usually take place between 2:00-4:00 AM in the middle of the night, waking the whole family, including the younger children. The last round of arrests, however, took place around 5:00 AM, just after the youth and their families had presumed they would not be arrested that night, and let themselves drift off into an almost comfortable slumber.

Much is being said in the media about Israeli fear. Due to the recent escalation of violence, Israelis are right now again, like they were during the second intifada, weighing the risks of doing things like riding public busses and visiting Jerusalem (Scheindlin, 2015). While certainly no one should live in fear, It is vitally important that we are not only concerned with the present tension Israelis are living under, but are also concerned with the constant tension that Palestinians live under every day of their lives as the victims of state terror. Randomly shooting tear tear gas into villages as a means of collective punishment, middle of the night arrests, settler attacks, restricted freedom of movement, and much more did not begin with the recent escalation of violence. These things are constants of life under Israeli occupation. Occupation itself is an act of terror. That Palestinian youth are rising up right now in an attempt to shake their oppression (the literal definition of intifada is to “shake off”) is not a coincidence. It is the result of Palestinians having lived their whole lives as the victims of Israeli state terrorism and control. The answer to the increased violence we are seeing right now is not more state terror and control. The answer is ending the occupation, granting the right of return to Palestinian refugees and their descendants, and guaranteeing full equality for all people in Israel/Palestine.


Walls, checkpoints, and Israeli Military Court Appearances

I spent my first night back in Palestine in Jerusalem’s old city. The “tension” some Israeli relative and friends of mine have described to me seemed to be far away from the bustle of the old city, with tourism seeming to be in full bloom and shop and restaurant life seeming to go on as usual. Shopkeepers I spoke to told me that the number of Israeli soldiers seemed to be decreasing.  

Yet, on October 26th, just two days before, Palestinian women of East Jerusalem put out a call to the international community to help protect them from “serious violations of Palestinian human rights, including physical attacks and injuries, severe psychological threats, and persecution by the Israeli settler-colonial state and settler entities violence, intimidation” (link to article). The same day, Since the beginning o October, Israel has erected 38 new barriers and 17 new checkpoints in East Jerusalem Palestinian neighborhoods, disrupting the daily lives of at least 138,000 Palestinians link to article. Israel seems to believe that force and further repression is the solution to unrest from continuing occupation and human rights abuses. However, we as advocates for human rights and equality for all people know that the occupation is the root cause of the violence and that further oppression will only bring more unrest in the present and the future link to article.  

Along with increasing numbers of checkpoints and barriers in East Jerusalem, since October 1, Israel has arrested over 1000 Palestinians, most of them young people (link to article). The 600 resident West Bank village of Nabi Selah, where I am staying with the Tamimi family, has seen the arrest of 14 young people since October 1 (see image below of Tamimis’ currently being held prisoner. These arrests have been in retaliation for the village’s ongoing resistance to the Israeli occupation through weekly nonviolent demonstrations. The village of Nabi Saleh has much to resist as the occupation impacts every of their daily lives. Coming into the village, we passed through a gate that the Israeli military has at the entrance to their village. The gate is often closed, preventing the villagers from entering or exiting their village. On a plate on the coffee table in the Tamimi’s living room are empty tear gas canisters and rubber bullets that they have collected from their front yard. Yesterday, on the date of my arrival in Nabi Selah, the Tamimi’s had spent the day attending military court hearings for those recently arrested, including their 18-year-old son, Waed. Waed was arrested in a raid on the village a few weeks prior to my arrival. The Tamimis, along with a couple Palestinian activists with Israeli citizenship, spent the evening pouring through court papers in hebrew, looking for a way to help their loved ones avoid spending years in notorious Israeli prisons. Israeli military courts has an almost 99.8% conviction rate. Pro bono legal support organizations are swamped with cases, so volunteers with various day jobs become, at night, the equivalent of legal aids. I asked my hosts how we, as Americans in solidarity, can help with the Tamimi’s court cases. They replied that legal defenses are enormously expensive and funds are needed.  

Despite all of the work and hardship of having a family member in jail, Nariman Tamimi served a delicious dinner that included fresh avocados, hummus, ful, home cured olives, and more. Nariman told me that arab custom dictates that for the first three days of my stay, I am a guest, and as such, may not help with the housework. After that, I may help with the dishes.


Back in Palestine: Reporting from the ground

Photo on 10-29-15 at 11.35 AM

I have just arrived back in Palestine. I flew into Tel aviv and easily got through passport control as my name is very easily recognizable as Jewish (this ease of entry is not usually the case for people with Arabic names). I spent the night in Jerusalem at the Citadel hostel in the old city. In the morning, shops opened as usual. So far, as of October 24, this October, 56 Palestinians and eight Israelis have been killed (Mapping the Dead).

This afternoon I will travel to Nabi Selah to stay with the Tamimi family and attend their weekly nonviolent demonstration tomorrow. This afternoon, Bassem’s oldest son, Waed, will have court. He was arrested recently in a raid on Nabi Selah. We are hoping for his release in the near future.